Honeymoon Of The Fixed
One Shot
October 5, 2018
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“You alright?” Tanong niya habang nagsasalin ng wine sa baso na nasa harapan namin ngayon.
I didn’t answer him and looked away.
Hindi naman sya nagreact do’n at mukhang nakasanayan nya na. He knows I don’t like this marriage nor I like him. Ngumiti lang sya ng kaunti bago binaba ang bote ng wine sa lamesang namamagitan sa ‘ming dalawa.
“Look, Inoue Raquel Ashleen.” Nagulat nalang ako nang bigla nyang hawakan ang magkabilang pisngi ko at iharap sa kaniya. Nakangiti na naman sya. Yung ngiti nyang di labas ang ngipin pero napakainosente ng datingan. “Whether you like it or not, we were fixed. We got married today and tonight is our honeymoon. Cheer up.” Tumayo na sya saka niluwagan ang tie nya.
Sinundan ko lang sya ng tingin nang maglakad sya. Polo nalang ang suot nya at pants. He was walking to the kitchen and leaving me to this terrace with the table of wine na may candles pa. Kinumpas nya sa hangin ang kamay habang naglalakad.
“There are lots of girls out there who felt really devastated knowing I’m married now. So, you must feel very lucky because you’re the one who married Reddionate Katsuwara.” Iyon lang bago ko sya nakitang humarap sa lababo. I can see him only through the mirror.
Psh. Binaling ko nalang ang tingin sa langit. The sky was full of stars. There would be no rain. But I feel really really sad. I am one of those girls who believe in unicorns and rainbows. So, marrying someone I don’t love is really saddening. Maybe, I like Red. Every girl probably will. He’s a hearthrob. And a popular casanova. And he has every single trait to be deserving of that title. The looks, the charm, the talents, the money. But I don’t love him. Ikinasal lang kami para sa isang testamentong iniwan ng mga magulang namin.
Kinuha ko ang wine at ininom ‘yon. I’m here. As he said, nandito na kami. All we can do is to accept our fate. I frowned upon tasting the red wine. Nang ibaba ko ito ay tumayo ako at dumiretso sa kusina. I need something stronger than the wine. Something I would get drunk of.
Nang makuha ko ang isang matapang na alak sa isa sa mga cabinet ay isang baso agad ang pinuno ko at walang habas na ininom ng diretso. Agh! Napahawak ako sa lalamunan ko sa biglaang pag-iinit non. That was really hard! Ghad, I didn’t know it would be like that. Mapait pero kailangan ko ‘to. Tinuloy ko ang pag-inom. I drink only occassionally. And I’m not really good at hard drinks. So, a glass or two would make me drunk.
“Ho—ly shit! What the hell are you doing, Inoue?!”
Nagulat ako nang may humablot sa basong iniinom ko. Sumalubong sa akin ang mukha ni Red. His hair were a bit wet. Mukhang naghilamos sya. Basa rin kasi ang dibdib nya na makikita na dahil naka-unbutton ang first buttons ng polo nya at maluwag na ang neck tie. Pinunasan ko ang labi ko at baba na nabasa na ng alak. Even my chest was wet because of the drink. Tuloy, may color violet na ‘tong white dress ko. Ang init sa pakiramdam ng alak. I must be blushing now.
“Seriously. We don’t have to follow the traditionals.” Aniya, seryoso. Hindi ko alam kung nabadtrip ba sya sa ginawa ko. Pero marahan naman ang paglapag nya ng baso sa mesa. “People would call me a casanova, sure. But Inoue, you should know I don’t hit on girls who I know are not in the same level as I am. Like you. And most of all, I don’t force girls.” Inangat ko ulit ang tingin sa kaniya at nakitang sobrang lapit namin sa isa’t isa. He was also looking straight to my eyes with his serious ones. “Bukod sa nakakasira ng record, nakakasira din ng reputasyon. You know, sanay akong babae ang lumalapit sa ‘kin. Forcing them makes me not so attractive.” Dagdag pa niyang biro nang may maliit na ngiti sa labi.
Dahan-dahan akong humarap sa kaniya. Ramdam ko na agad ang hilong epekto ng alak na ininom ko. Kinunutan ko sya ng noo. “What do you mean ‘girls who are not in your level’? You mean, mababa ang lebel ko para pantayan ka? Because you’re higher than me, is that it, Red?” Hinawakan ko ang dulo ng neck tie nya.
Hinawakan naman nya ang kamay kong nakahawak sa neck tie at inalalayan ako sa likuran gamit ang isa pa nyang kamay. “No, no. It’s the other way around. Let’s go. Ayokong dumating tayo sa puntong susukahan mo ‘ko.” Tumawa sya saka umaktong aalalayan akong maglakad.
But I refused and instead, hinila ko pa lalo palapit sa akin ang tie nya. Mukha nga syang nagulat nang biglang maglapit ang mukha namin ng halos wala nang space. I smiled at him with my dizzy eyes. “It’s our honeymoon, isn’t it?” I winked. I don’t know where do I get this confidence. Sigurado dahil na sa alak.
He chuckled uncomftably and distanced himself. “I told you we don’t have to follow the traditionals, Inoue.”
Binitawan ko sya saka nagsalumbaba sa mesa at nginitian sya nang may mapungay nang mga mata. “You wouldn’t have to force me.” Tapos tinaas ko pareho ang dalawang kamay ko as if gesturing something. “Besides, you said it yourself! We got married today and tonight’s our honeymoon. We were fixed. Sooner or later, we’ll end up in this very same setting. Rushing it wouldn’t make any difference.”
“You’re just drunk.” Hinawakan na naman nya ako para akayin pero hinawakan ko na ang dibdib nya.
“Are you really going to spare a virgin?” Tanong ko nang nakahawak sa magkabilang collar nya. Saka ko dahan-dahang ibinaba ang dalawang kamay ko sa dibdib nya.
He seemed to be a little stiffened. Mukhang nagugulat dahil sa biglang pagbabago ng mood at ginagawa ko. Saka sya napapikit na parang sobrang torn. I heard him murmur.
“Goodness, Inoue. You’re torturing me.”
Hinawakan nya ako sa isang balikat at sa kabila ay sa pisngi. Suddenly, he had those passionate and deep brown eyes. Sobrang lalim at parang mas lalo akong nalalasing. He closed the gap between us and not so long, we shared our very first kiss. It was a slow gentle kiss. Dahan-dahan kong naibaba ang dalawang kamay ko papunta sa bewang nya. I’m getting more than drunk. He pulled me by my waist closer to him and held my nape. When we started to walk in his lead, hindi na ako umangal at sumunod.
We were breaking the kiss from time to time because I was gasping for breath. And then, he’s going to continue it. I was drowned and mesmerized. Ang alam ko lang, nakahawak ako sa batok nya. His gentle kiss turned to a passionate one. I don’t have any slightest idea about kissing but I must say he’s good because he leads me very well. Later on, I realized, nasa sofa na kami.
He broke the kiss and started to plant little ones from my cheek down to my neck line, to my neck and collar bone. So, this is how it feels like. I liked the way he do it. I could smell his manly perfume and it’s getting me more drowned of the moment. I kept myself busy with removing his tie and unbuttoning his polo. Nang matapos ako, bumalik sa labi ko ang halik nya. He then carry me in a bridal style. He didn’t break the kiss even if he carries me to somewhere I don’t give a care right now. I respond to his kisses the way he probably want me to.
Naramdaman ko ang paglapag nya sa akin sa malambot na kama. He was on top of me. He broke the kiss and gave me a short yet captivating smile. Is this what he gives to the other girls he have dated? Is this his natural charm? Because if I’m in a pit right now, there’s no way I could climb up. Lumayo sya saglit at hinubad ang polo nya bago ako muling hinalikan.
His kisses started to be a little rough. He uses his tongue this time. And his hands started to get busy of my body. I was so stunned and mesmerized and drowned. I don’t do anything but hold him by his nape and back. He continued until he removed the strap of my brassiere. Next thing happened is that he got to undress me. I was naked and felt sudden shame to cover myself. But he removed my hands and planted a soft kiss on my belly button down to my treasure.
As if on cue, I covered it to stop him. He did and gave me a look. A look asking for permission. I gulped and thought of earlier. It was my choice. And so, I slowly unveiled the hidden. Lumapit sya sa ‘kin at binigyan ako ng isang mabilis na halik sa labi.
“I’ll be gentle.”
He didn’t wait for my response and kissed me instead. I responded to his kisses. I could feel him against me so bad. I was caged on his arms yet it felt so fine and safe. I held him by his back and when he deepened the kiss, I managed to keep it. This is it, Ira.
Ramdam ko nang i-unzip nya ang pants nya. But I tried to keep my focus only to his kiss. Suddenly, ibinaba nya ang halik sa leeg ko. Making me moan. This time, I could clearly feel his manhood against mine. Can I really do this? Parang ngayon ako nagsimulang kabahan. If am I really sure or everything was just because of the liquor. But I did. I would be unfair to him if I would back out of my words earlier who he did not intend.
I closed my eyes and even if I didn’t want to, my concentration was captivated of his business below. Lumunok ulit ako. Still closed eyes, I waited for his move. For the real beginning of the decision I have made. The honeymoon I insisted. And because I was so much concentrated to it, hindi ko agad narealize na kanina pa sya tumigil sa paghalik. I was brought back to reality when he covered my body with a warm blanket and gently wiped my tears away. I was crying? Ang pinakanakakagulat ay bigla kong naramdaman ang isang halik sa noo ko. One soft gentle kiss.
Doon ako napadilat. I looked for Red. And I found his back facing me. He had his pants on but he remained topless. Hindi ako nagsalita dahil hindi ko alam ang sasabihin. And so, he did. Nagsalita sya nang hindi humaharap sa akin.
“I told you, you’re not ready yet.”
I made myself comftable under the blanket and answered. “It’s alright, isn’t it? Pwedeng ituloy sa susunod. It’s not that it’s a waste. We don’t love each other anyways.” I sounded so casual the way I want to.
Kinuha nya ang polo nya at sinuot. “Nah, Inoue.” Tapos bigla syang humarap sa akin. This time, he was serious and unreadable. “You still don’t know why I call other girls ‘babe’ yet I call you by your whole first name, don’t you?” Isang tipid na ngiti lang ang binigay nya bago sya tumalikod at umalis ng kwarto dala ang isang unan.
Napabuga ako bigla ng hangin at napatingala sa kisame. Red is a casanova who doesn’t remember any of his girls’ name yet he remembered mine even if it’s composed of three.
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